The secrets out! We are expecting another little bean in our family. I might not sound like I’m happy to be pregnant, but I am! I really am. We cannot be more thankful to be expecting God’s greatest gift in 2019. I might have waited a bit longer than usual to make an announcement. But it actually has been incredibly challenging not to share it. Because it has been impossible to hide my belly since I was 6 weeks pregnant. This one just popped and there was no way to suck it back in. Thank God the weather had been turning cooler and I have been able to cover up with cardigans, hoodies and loose jumpers.

I have been thinking long and hard how to tell family and friends. I was so reluctant that I told #JasperBean almost a week before I told S. Good thing my boy knows how to keep a secret! When S found out, he wanted to tell my family immediately, but I was more hesitant. I got so anxious when the day came. I’m not sure he understood why I didn’t want to share this happy news.

Emotional Rollercoaster

Maybe it was the pregnancy hormones. I went through so many different emotions and conflicts about announcing our pregnancy. Why? Firstly, I didn’t feel the need or urge to share. I felt uncomfortable being fussed over and didn’t want to be told I couldn’t/shouldn’t do or eat certain things. Secondly, many of my friends are going through fertility treatments. I, although didn’t have to go through IVF or IUI, Living with PCOS meant that I didn’t ovulate and needed medical assistance to help me get pregnant with #JasperBean. So I know how hard it is when someone announces an impending arrival, the feeling of “I’m so happy for you, but so unhappy because it’s not happening for me?”

I am not someone who can hide my emotions or feelings easily. I’m way too blunt for that. It just all shows on my face and I cannot ignore it. So if you have told me of your pregnancy before and I didn’t seem as happy as you thought I should have been. Please forgive me, please don’t judge my first reaction. I just needed time to compose myself and let the news sink in. I AM and WAS delighted and excited for you.

God’s Greatest Gift

It may be wrong for me to say that we weren’t actually trying for a second baby, but I’m sharing this news because I know there is hope. I found it extremely difficult to conceive naturally the first time round, without medical intervention, I may not have gotten pregnant at all. But trust me when I say this, it can all change. Do all you can within your own strength and God will show you that anything is possible. Even if it’s not the result you were hoping for, it will work out according to His plan. His words kept me anchored and gave me comfort, hope and encouragement. Trust in Him and know that you are not alone. He truly is a great Father and because He loves us, He gives us the most precious and perfect gifts.

Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows.- James 1:17

To my friends who are currently pregnant, congratulations and I hope you have a smooth and joyous journey. Before you make your announcement, know that there are many people who are in a more difficult position than you. So forgive them if their first reaction is not what you expected or there is a long delay before you hear anything. And to all my friends who find this news hard to hear; hugs, hugs and hugs. I can partially understand what you’re going through and will always be here to support you. Remember, I will always have an ear listening, a shoulder to lean on, arms to wrap around and give you a big fat hug. You are not alone. Lastly, I leave you with God’s words;

Rejoice in hope, be patient in tribulation, be constant in prayer. Romans 12:12

Thank you for reading, please continue scrolling for some photo’s of our excited little #JasperBean! I couldn’t have asked for a more caring and happy little boy!

Love, MsMamaBean x